FEARS OF A BLUE TOMORROW

'DO YOU WANT YOUR ADVENTURE NOW, OR WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR TEA FIRST'?...PETER PAN-J.M.BARRIE

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THE ‘EVE’ ECHO ‘HUNGERS’ THAT ARE SEEMINGLY PACIFIED AND ‘OUT OF MIND’ ARE ‘ACTIVATED’…THE ‘UNFORESEEN COMBINATION OF CIRCUMSTANCES’ IGNITES THE ‘UNSEEN’ AND THE ‘PREVIOUSLY UNFELT’ MOVING OUT OF A DREAM INTO A POSSIBLE REALIZATION RHYTHM…THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT IS NEAR…THE TIME OF ‘AULDE LANG SYNE’ AND KISSES PAST THE ‘FEARS OF A BLUE TOMORROW’…IT IS A TIME OF BREATHING INTO THE ‘CRACKS’ OF BROKEN MIRRORS AND FRACTURED REFLECTIONS OF ‘YESTERDAZE’ CONFINEMENTS… A TIME OF ACCESSING THE GREAT DUALITY OF ‘CREATIVE ROAMING’…THE WANDERING IN SEARCH OF THE DEEP LOVE OF INNOCENCE THAT WAS LOST IN BETRAYALS AND NEGLECT…MEMORY IS ABLE TO SEE SO MANY COMPENSATORY BEHAVIORS AS THEY EVOLVED INTO THE ‘VALUED’ ‘PERSONALITY’ KNOWING HOW TO ‘MEDIATE’, ‘MANIPULATE’ AND ‘SURVIVE’ FENDING FOR ONESELF…A ‘PERSONALITY’ DEVELOPED AS A ‘SHAME BASED’ FORTRESSED DEFENSIVENESS OF ‘GOING ALONG’ AND ‘GETTING ALONG’…A ‘LEVERAGING MODE’ SEEKING TO OVERCOME THE EARLY HARM RESONANCE EXPERIENCED AND FELT AS A ‘TYRANNY OF POWERLESSNESS’…A ‘PERSONALITY’, JOKINGLY REFERRED TO IN BROOKLYNESE AS ‘POISONALITY’, BUILT AS AN EROTIC-NEUROTIC CASTLE OF PUZZLES DESIGNED TO ‘WARD OFF’ ANY ‘ANNIHILATION’ THREATS…A ‘3 LITTLE PIGS’ HOUSE OF BRICKS THAT PROTECTS AGAINST THE ‘BIG BAD WOLF’ AND ‘SEEMS SAFE’…A FORTRESSED ‘BRICK SHIT HOUSE’ WHERE ‘FEELINGS ARE HIDDEN ‘BEHIND’…THE FOSTERING OF THE ‘REARING’ WAY OF ‘YOU ARE WITH US OR AGAINST US’…THE ECHOIC DANGERS OF RECURRENCE SENSED IN THE ‘LITTLE CHILD’ FUEL THE ‘BRICK WAY OF LAYERING’…THE EARLY HARM RESONANCE IS THE GREAT FEAR, ABANDONMENT, AND ANGRY HEART OF NEGLECTED SOUL…A ‘LITTLE CHILD FINDS WAYS TO COUNTER FEELINGS OF ‘SOUL FRIGHT’ AND ‘ABANDONMENT’ BY WITHDRAWAL AND MASKING…IT IS ONLY IN TIMES OF REOCCURENCE THAT ONE HAS AN OPPORTUNITY TO BREAKTHROUGH THE WEBBING AND REACH FOR THE GLIMPSED STRANGER THAT CALLS…THERE IS RISK AS ONE EXPERIENCES THE ‘FEELINGS’ THAT HAVE BEEN LONG ‘SUPPRESSED OR DENIED’…THE MOMENT OF DECIDING TO ‘REACH’ IS THE PIVOTAL STEP TO PERSONAL LIBERATION AND EMPOWERMENT…IT IS A TIME OF RISING OUT OF THE UNDERCURRENTS AND DISSOLVING THE FORTRESSING… IT IS ‘WILL’ LEARNING TO ‘SURF’ IN ‘SEEING’ THE FORCES AND ‘WAVES’ FROM ABOVE… THE ‘GLIMPSE’ OF WHAT IS ‘OUT OF REACH’ BECKONS YET ONE DOES NOT HAVE THE EXPERIENCE OF SUCCESSFULLY ACHIEVING ON THE ‘HIGHER PLANE’…IT IS THE ‘OPPORTUNITY OF THE CRISIS’ TO GO BEYOND AND RISK DOING WHAT ONE HAS NOT DONE BEFORE…THE ‘GLIMPSE’ DISPLAYS AN INNER DISTANCING FROM ONE’S ORIGINS…SOMETHING IN THE LIGHT WAVE THAT FLOWS IN THE EYES AND NERVES OF A FLOWER GIRL…A CALLING INTO ‘THE ARENA’ OF TRUE EROS AWAKENING…SOMETHING FELT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FORTRESSING…A BUBBLING UP OF NEW ANGST YET A STRENGTH OF LOVE URGENCY SUPPORTIVE IN A BELIEF THAT ONE ‘WILL’ ACCESS THE ‘GLIMPSED’…IT IS A TIME OF MARSHALLING ENERGIES AS ‘WHAT CAN BE RELEASED BECOMES AVAILABLE FOR THE ACCELERATION INTO PRESENCE…A ‘LETTING GO’ OF THE ‘SHAME’ STRUCTURED ‘PERSONALITY’ AS ONE FEELS TRUTH OF HEART IN REAL TIME EXPRESSION AND BREATH…ONE STEPS INTO THE SPIRITUAL EMPOWERMENT OF THE DRIVES OF ‘BECKONING’…TO LEARN TO ‘SEE ONESELF IN A NEW WAY’…TO UNIFY ‘ASPIRATION-INSPIRATION’ IN A DECONSTRUCTION-RECONSTITUTION CRYSTALLIZATION OF BIOGRAPHY…IT IS THE TIME OF FACING THE ‘FEARS OF A BLUE TOMORROW’…TO BEGIN TO ENCOUNTER THE ‘YESTERDAZE’ HIBERNATION ‘ALARMS’ AND ‘ALERT’ MECHANISMS DEVELOPED TO PREVENT THE ‘UNEXPECTED’…THE ‘MEDIATED’ AND CONSTRAINED ENERGIES OF THE ‘WALLED OFF’ AND THE ‘HIDDEN’ THAT LIMIT ‘EXPOSURE’…THE ‘IMAGINARY’ REALM OF ‘STORAGE BIN’ SPACES OF THE ‘EXCESSES’ WITHHELD …A POSTURAL RIGIDITY HOLDING THE ‘CART BEFORE THE HORSE’ …A ‘SPLIT-OFF’ SPIRALLING PATTERN OF ‘AVOIDANCE’ AND HYSTERIA DANGER ALARM SELF ABSORPTION… THE APPROACH-AVOIDANCE PROCESS OF SHUTTING DOWN RATHER THAN ENCOUNTERING MALE ENERGIES AND THE POTENTIAL SPLITTING OF THE DEEP FEMININE…THE ‘INTENSITY’ OF DEMANDS IN ‘TEASINGS’ AND ‘TESTINGS’ TO FILTER AS TERROR FEELINGS ARE ACTIVATED IN THE DREAD OF ‘BREAKING EGGS’…THE GROWTH PROCESS IS IN THE DISSOLUTION AND THE TIME OF DIVISION AS ‘TO AND INTO’ LEAD TO A ‘CONVULSIVENESS’ OF NEW LAVA FERTILIZATION… THE ERUPTIVENESS OF VALUE AS ONE RELEASES OUT OF THE ‘HABITS’ OF THE ‘SHAME FORTRESSING…‘TO, TWO, AND INTO’ BECOME PATH OF HEART ‘COLLISIONISM’ BRINGING FORTH WHAT IS ‘KINETIC POTENTIAL’…WHAT IS ‘EMPOWERMENT’…WHAT IS ‘GLIMPSED’…A ‘REVERSAL OF FORTUNE’ AS ENERGIES ARE CALLED FORWARD…THE ‘CREATIVE ACT’ BECOMES THE AFFIRMATION OF THE SELF OVERCOMING THE ‘INNER UNREAL’…‘ONE CANNOT REPAIR CONTROL’ AND REAL FEELINGS MUST BE ALLOWED TO FLOW BEYOND THE ‘FILTERS’ OF THE FEAR STRUCTURES OF THE ‘INNER UNREAL’…IT IS NOT THE PATHING OF A CAMELEON WHERE DISPLAYS AND MASKINGS OCCUR…IT IS THE SHEDDING OF A SKIN TO BECOME THE ‘EVE’ SERPENTINE EROS OF THE ‘FORBIDDEN’ BY THE ‘LIMITS’ OF ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING…IT IS A STRUGGLE OF ‘DIGNITY’ TO MOVE OUT OF ‘IMPRISONED’ REACTIVITY TO REAL FLOWS…THE IMAGINATIVE MAY SERVE TO CONTAIN IN PLAYING DREAMS AS DRAMA ON THE ‘ENVISIONING SCREEN’ OF SUSTAINING THE ‘ORDERING’ OF THE ‘EXTERNALIZATION’…ONE MUST DECIDE ‘WILL’ TO MOVE THROUGH THE CONTAINMENT OF THE ‘ENVELOPE’ AND ESTABLISH ONE’S OWN AUTHENTICITY RHYTHM…ONE MUST DECIDE TO ESTABLISH ONE’S OWN ‘HOME’…THE CENTERING OF ONE’S OWN HOMEOSTASIS…THE CENTERING OF ‘ELASTICITY’ AND RESILIENCE RESOLVE TO ASSERT REAL FEELINGS TO EXCEED THE CONSTRAINTS OF THE ‘ENVELOPE’ THAT IS IN THE ‘BINDINGS’ AND ‘BONDAGE’ OF FAMILY ‘ECHOIC’ INERTIA…THE IDENTITY ‘MYTHOLOGY’ WITH SOME TRUTH OF ‘GROUNDING’ YET MORE CONFINING THAN LIBERATING…ONE’S OWN ‘HOMEOSTASIS’ DEEP WITHIN THE REAL SELF YET OUTSIDE OF THE ORBITAL CONFINES OF THE HEREDITARY ‘TRIANGULATION’…THE BIRTHING OF THE ‘CREATIVE SELF’…OWNERSHIP OF ONE’S REAL ENERGIES THAT OVERCOME HABITS OF ‘WHAT CAN I LIVE WITH AND WHAT CAN I GET AWAY WITH’…THE GENERATIVE AS BEING IN REAL EXPRESSION AND ‘TRUTH OF SUCK’…AS WAGNER MUSED ‘THE FORM ELUDES ME’…THE QUEST TO ‘BECOME’ IN EMOTIONAL INDEPENDENCE OF VISION’ AND EXPRESSION…THE FUNCTION OF BEING OPEN TO ‘ENCOUNTER’…GOING WHERE THE ‘GLIMPSE’ BECKONS…EXPLORATION, CHANCE, DISCOVERY AND REDISCOVERY OF A ‘PURITY’ OF EMOTIONS IN SOUL GENERATIONS OF IDEAS AND FEELINGS…SOMETHING BECOMES FORM AS FORM FOLLOWS AND SERVES FUNCTION…THE TIME OF ENCOUNTER AS OPPORTUNITY OF THE TRUTH OF THE AFFECT OF SOMETHING IS TRANSFERRED INTO ART…THE AFFECT OF THE EXPERIENCE AS IT DOES SOMETHING TO ONE IS REFLECTED IN SOME ‘FORM’…PICASSO’S GUERNICA DISPLAYS HIS VISCERAL CREATIVE RESPONSE TO THE ‘HORROR’ OF THE MURDER BOMBINGS OF THE INNOCENT AND DEFENSELESS OF THE SPANISH TOWN OF GUERNICA IN THE LATE 1930’S…THE DEEP VOLCANIC ERUPTIVENESS THROUGH HIS SKILLS AND TOOLS OF EXPRESSION…EVERYONE HAS THE POTENTIAL TO GENERATE…MOST SIMPLY HAVE NEVER BEEN GUIDED OR SUPPORTED TO BE ‘INDEPENDENT’ AND ‘UNIQUE’ IN ‘STANDING ON ONE’S OWN’ SPEAKING ONE’S VISION AND BEING ‘UNMEDIATED’ IN ASSERTION OF ‘KNOWING’…ONE MUST ‘BREAKTHROUGH’ THE ‘EGGING’ AND ‘SEDUCTION’ MISDIRECTIONS OF THE ‘LITTLE CHILD’ ENMESHED IN THE ‘TRIANGULATION’ PATTERNS OF EARLY WOUNDEDNESS…THE WOMAN-CHILD WEBBED IN THE ‘SHESHADOWS’ AND ‘TRAUMA’ ECHOES OF A LIFETIME OF LEVERAGINGS IN BEING ‘TOO MUCH’ OF A ‘GOOD THING’…THE ‘DUTIFUL’ SON OR DAUGHTER UNABLE TO LIVE ‘ON ONE’S OWN’…THE LITTLE CHILD FEELING THE POWER COMPRESSIONS OF THE ‘IMPOSITION ORDERING’ UNABLE TO FEEL STRONG ENOUGH TO BE IN ‘EQUITY’ OR ‘EXCEED THEIR CONSTRAINTS…IT IS A RESENTMENT IN FEELINGS OF ‘CASTRATION’ AS ONE’S SEXUALITY IS ‘DENIED IN THE HEREDITY TRIANGULATION’…ONE IS TAUGHT TO ‘DIMINISH ‘IT’ AND OBTAIN ‘LOVE’ BY SATISFYING THE ‘DEMANDS’ OF ‘IMAGE’ AND LIVING WITHIN THE CONSTRAINTS OF ‘SHAME’…INEVITABLY THE ‘LITTLE ONE’ MOVES TO A CRISIS OF ‘SELF HATE’ AS ONE SPLITS OFF AND DISCOVERS ONE CANNOT SERVE THE FALSENESS OF SOMEONE ELSE’S REWARDS…ONE LEARNS TO LEAVE FOR THE NECESSITY OF REAL HEART’ THAT IS BEYOND ‘PAIN RELIEF AND ESCAPISM’…ONE CAN SEE THE ‘FLIGHT’ FROM PRESENCE IN THE LAYERINGS OF ‘TRAGIC VEILS’ OF RECURRENCE…THE REPETITIONS OF ‘WARDING AWAY’ REAL FEELINGS OF ‘GUILT AND GRIEF’ TO MASK THE TRUE FEELINGS OF RAGE AND BETRAYAL…THE LEVEL OF THE DEEP VULNERABLE SELF UNABLE TO ‘LET GO’…APPLYING THE TEST OF ‘WALKING ON EGGS’ TO ACHIEVE ‘AM-BITCHIN’ STATES TO COUNTER THE ‘OPPRESSION’ OF SO LONG AGO…THE ‘EROTIC-NEUROTIC’ NARCISSISM OF ABSORPTION TENSIONS OF ‘FLIGHT’ AND SELF DECEPTION VANITY AS ‘DENIAL’ NORMALCY BUILT INTO THE ‘SHAME CASTLE’ WALLING OFF AND FORTRESSING’…THE SOLUTION TO THE ‘FEAR OF A BLUE TOMORROW’ IS IN THE OPPORTUNITY CONSCIOUSNESS OF GRADUALLY RELEASING INTO AN ‘AS IS’ PRESENCE OF SELF…A ‘LETTING GO’ OF THE ‘TOO EARLY DEFINED’ THAT VEILS AND OBSTRUCTS DEMANDING ‘SOMETHING’ IN EXCHANGE’…THE POWER GREATER THAN LOVE SHAME BASED FORTRESSED WAY OF LIFE… A FEELING OF ‘POWERLESSNESS’ WAY OF ‘LEVERAGING’ TO ‘FORTIFY’ AND SUSTAIN THE ‘IMAGERY’ OF ‘ILLUSION’…THE ‘FANTASY’ VERSIONS OF WHAT IS NECESSARY TO ENDURE…THE IMAGE AND COSMETIC DISPLAYS OF ‘WHO I WANT YOU TO SEE AND WHO I WANT YOU TO BE’…WHERE IS THE PATH LEARNING REAL INDEPENDENCE TO OUTGROW THE KINWEBBING CONFINEMENT OF ‘ACCEPTABLE DESIRE’ THAT REQUIRES AN EVERYDAY ‘MEDIATION’ BALANCING ACT TO SUSTAIN THE NEVERENDING ‘DISTORTION’ DISEQUILIBRIUM OF ‘ENDURANCE’…THE DEGREES OF DISTORTION AND IMBALANCES NECESSARY TO ‘BE’ IN A ‘HARMONY’ WHERE ‘CONFLICT’ IS SUPPRESSED CONSTANTLY…THUS THE ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’ OF APPETITE FEED OFF THE ‘HIDDEN AGENDA’ OF STRESSFUL IMPOSITIONS AND ENSURE THE INERTIA OF THE ‘SHAME FORTRESSING’ PREVENTING ANY REALIZATION OF REAL TRUTH OF PRESENCE…IT IS VIRGINIA WOOLF MAINTAINING THE GROUNDING OF ‘FIERCE INDEPENDENCE’ AS GRANITE WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY HOLDING THE ‘WISH’ DREAM OF THE ‘RAINBOW’ THAT ‘SHE WOULD LIKE LIFE TO BE’…THE CONTRADICTIONS CREATING STATES OF NON RESOLUTION EATING AWAY AT POTENTIAL RESOLVE…EACH DAY HER DREAMS DIE IN SLEEP AS TIME WASHES AWAY THE INITIATIVE TO BE IN ‘AS IS’… SHE LIVES IN THE SHADOWS OF AN INHERITED ‘TRIANGULATION UMBRELLA’ OF ‘DESIRE’…BEING ‘TORN’ APART BY WHAT IS REAL AND WHAT SHE IS EXPECTED TO BE…SHE YEARNS FOR THE VISCERAL ‘FIRE IN THE BELLY’…THE ‘GUTS’ BEING OPEN TO THE ‘PSYCHE SURPRISE’ OF A ‘GLIMPSED STRANGER’ MOMENT BECKONING DESTINY…THE WILL TO ACCEPT THE ACTIVATION OF REAL FEELINGS IN ‘SEEING SOMETHING JUST OUT OF REACH’ AND THE COURAGE TO MARSHALL ENERGIES INTO THE ASSERTION OF HEART’S DESIRE…SHE SEEKS TO MOVE INTO THE TRUTH OF A HUNGER THAT IS MERELY PACIFIED AND MEDIATED…A HUNGER OF HER OWN THAT IS SUPPRESSED YET YEARNS TO AWAKEN…SHE DOES NOT BELIEVE IT IS POSSIBLE TO REMOVE THE ‘HABIT’ OR THE ‘EMOTIONAL CRUTCH’ THAT HAS SERVED HER ‘SAFENESS’ FOR SO LONG…IT IS THE COURAGE OF PRESENCE…A RECOGNITION OF AN OPPORTUNITY OF ‘OMENOLOGICAL SENSIBILITY’ AS ‘ONLY THE FEW COME TO THEIR SENSES SLOWLY AND ONE AT A TIME’…THE TIME OF AN ‘OPPORTUNITY’ IN THE CRISIS’ OF SELF TO MAKE THE SIGNIFICANT CHANGE… THE ‘LEAP TO’ TIME OF A CRYSTALLIZING ENCOUNTER MOMENT OF DOING RISK FOR REAL GROWTH…THE TIME OF ACTUALLY FEELING TRUTH OF HUNGER IN SEEING THE ‘IMAGE’ OR THE ‘MODEL’ OF THE ‘GLIMPSED STRANGER’…THE RESPECT OF SELF TO GO TOWARD WHAT SURFACES… TO STEP FORWARD IN REALIZATION OF ONE BREATHING INTO ‘BECOMING’…IT IS THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF A ‘PAINTER’ KNOWING ONE DOES NOT TRY TO DEFINE ‘IT’ TOO SOON’…IT HAS TO EVOLVE AS IT ‘SURFACES’ BECOMING AS IT WISHES TO BE…IT ‘HAS A LIFE OF ITS’ OWN AND THE COURAGE TO LIVE IS IN THE WILL OF TOLERATION OF AMBIGUITY…TO BE ABLE TO GO THROUGH THE ‘OBSTACLES’ AND ‘QUICKSANDS’ OF UNHEALTHY TANGENTS AND DISTRACTIONS…TO BE ON ONE’S OWN PATH OF HEART…TO FEEL THE AFFECT OF SOMETHING AND LET IT FLOW INTO A CREATIVE ACTION…THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ WAS FORMED TO ‘ADAPT, DEFEND AND ENDURE’ AS ONE EXPERIENCES ‘POWERLESSNESS’ AND MOVES DEEP INTO ‘REACTIVITY’ TO PROTECT AGAINST THE ‘HARM’ AND SEEK TO PREVENT ITS’ RECURRENCE…IT IS ‘SHOCK’ AND ‘ISOLATION’ COMPELLING ‘ADHERENCE’ AND ‘ALLEGIANCE’…THUS ‘PERSONALITY’ STRUCTURES TO DEAL WITH THE ‘ENVIRONMENT’ AND TRUTH OF CHARACTER IS ‘HIDDEN’ IN THE UNDEVELOPED DEPTHS OF THE FORTRESSED…TRUTH OF CHARACTER OCCURS IN LIFE CRISIS WHERE ‘EMOTIONAL STRENGTHS’ SURFACE AND ‘INDIVIDUATION BREAKSTHROUGH THE ILLUSIONS OF PERSONALITY HABITS AND PATTERNS…OVERCOMING THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ AND THE GREAT IMPOSITIONS’ OF THE ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’…THE CREATIVE ACTS LIBERATE AS ONE DECONSTRUCTS THE ‘PERSONALITY’ MODES OF IMAGE PROJECTION AND TRUTH OF CHARACTER EMERGES AS ‘REAL INNER NECESSITY’…IT IS MORE THAN MERE ENDURANCE…IT IS ‘WILL’ TO LIVE ONE’S OWN LIFE…THERE ARE A LOT OF CONTRADICTIONS AND CONFUSIONS WITHIN THAT ARE ONLY SOLVED ‘ONE STEP AT A TIME’…IT IS LEARNING TO FEEL EACH FEELING AS ONE REMOVES ‘DEPENDENCY’ FUELS AND ‘PACIFIER HABITS’…TO KNOW ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’ IN DECONSTRUCTION OF THE ‘SHAME CASTLE’ AND TO KNOW HOW MUCH OF THE SELF FUNCTIONS IN THE ‘HALVENESS’ OR ‘DOUBLE DUALITY’ OF MING…IT BECOMES VERY COMPLEX AS ONE FACES THE ‘INNER UNREAL’, TAKES ON THE ‘APPETITES’ OF THE ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’ AND DECIDES TO WRESTLE WITH THE ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’ OF THE RHYTHMS OF ‘MING’…ALL TO OWN ONE’S OWN SOUL…IT IS MORE THAN A ‘NEGOTIATION OF REALITY’…IT IS A DECISION TO FEEL AS NATURAL AS POSSIBLE IN THE TRUTH OF ‘AS IS’…THE MORE ONE IS ‘TIGHTLY SHAME FORTRESSED THE MORE ‘EVERYTHING’ IS AVAILABLE TO BE ‘USED’ FOR THE RHYTHMS OF ‘MING’…THE MORE ONE FIGHTS FOR ONE’S REAL SELF THE LESS ONE IS SUFFOCATED IN THE CONSTRAINTS OF FALSENESS THAT IS THE ‘FORTRESSED INNER UNREAL’…MOST DO NOT HAVE THE COURAGE TO UNVEIL AND ASSERT THEIR OWN DIRECTION…MOST MERELY ‘PLAY ONE PERSON OFF OF ANOTHER’ OR ‘MEDIATE’ BY ‘PARTITIONING’ IN ‘TEMPORARY INTENSITY’ MOMENTS OF ‘CONNECTION’…THE QUEST FOR ‘AUTHENTICITY’ REQUIRES ‘SHEDDING’ AND ‘HEART’ FOCUSED CLARITY OF ‘INTENTIONS’ TO BE ‘PRESENT’…TO DEVELOP THE SELF THAT SEEKS TO ‘BE’, LETTING GO OF ALL THE TRAPPINGS OF ‘IMPOSITIONS’ AND ‘EXPECTANCIES’, THE ‘FANTASIES, DREAMS, AND ILLUSIONS’ OF ENDURANCE…TO LET GO OF THE ‘PATTERNS’ OF ‘WHAT ONE ‘DID’ FOR LOVE AND PAIN RELIEF’ AND BREATHE INTO THE STRENGTH OF RESPECT AND ONE’S OWN TRUE JOURNEY… TO RESPECT THE SURFACINGS AND NOT ‘SHUT DOWN’…TO APPRECIATE THE VALUE OF THE ‘SURPRISE’ AND THE UNKNOWN… THE FEELINGS ACTIVATED IN RESPONSE TO THE ‘GLIMPSED’ WHO IS ‘JUST OUT OF REACH’…THE ‘DREAM’ TIME OF ‘DREAMS ECHO DEEPLY’…THE FOLLOW YOUR ‘DREAMS’ AND BRING THEM INTO PRESENCE…THE ‘HEART OF HEALING AND THE COURAGE TO ENCOUNTER…TO CREATE…IT IS THE ‘WISDOM OF MINERVA’ KNOWING THE ‘IMPORTANCE OF SERIOUS CHANGE’…THE REALIZATION THAT THE ‘INNER UNREAL SHAME FORTRESSING’ AND THE EROSTOCRACY IMPOSITION OF PATTERNS OF ‘REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVE’ ENERGIES IS CONSUMING MORE AND MORE OF ONE’S LIFE FORCE…ONE HAS TO ASSERT TO CLAIM AND MARSHALL…TO EXPRESS…IT IS THE DEPTH OF ‘WILFULNESS ALTERING’ INTO TRUTH OF ‘WILL’…A DETERMINATION TO BE REAL…A DECONSTRUCTION AS ‘THINGS FALL APART AND THE CENTER DOES NOT HOLD’… SOMETHING HAS TO DIE IN ORDER FOR SOMETHING NEW TO BE BORN…THE ‘MEDIATION’ SEEKS TO SUSTAIN THE ‘STATE’ OF CONTINUITY YET LEARNS THE ‘FAILURE’ THAT IS IN THE ASHES IS THE REAL OPPORTUNITY OF NEW GROWTH…THE ‘INNER UNREAL’ COLLAPSES AND IS BURNED DOWN JUST LIKE THE DEATH AND HOUSE IMMOLATION OF ‘GILBERT GRAPE’S EXCESSIVELY OBESE MOTHER IN THE FILM ‘WHAT’S EATING GILBERT GRAPE’…THE ‘SHAME’ IS WHAT MUST BE ‘BURNED AWAY’ IN ORDER TO OWN YOUR OWN SOUL…HEART IS WHAT EMERGES…HEART THAT HAS DISTILLED THE WISDOM OF WHAT MATTERS…HEART THAT SURVIVES THE DISMEMBERMENT OF THE ‘DIONYSIAN’ AND RECONSTITUTES INTO FULLNESS OF BEING…HEART THAT KNOWS ITSELF BEYOND THE ‘MEDIATION’ OF ‘FORCES’ AND ‘DECEPTIONS’…HEART THAT KNOWS THE HUMAN AND SEES THE ‘TRIVIAL’ OF THE CULTURE JUXTAPOSED WITH THE ‘SINCERE’… HEART THAT FINDS OTHER ‘HEART’ IN WAYS OF ENCOUNTER AND ‘CONNECTION’…THE ‘CRISIS-RISK-OPPORTUNITY’ MOMENT IS A TIME OF ‘GLIMPSE’ TO SEE A WAY OF OVERCOMING THE ‘SELF’…THE TIME OF OVERCOMING THE ‘MASTER’S DOUBLE’…THE ‘KA’ OF ‘PERSONALITY’ OR ‘PERFORMANCE’ INERTIA THAT INTERACTS WITH AND IS REWARDED BY THE WORLD…THE ‘DOUBLE’ AS ‘HALF’ THAT MAY SUCK THE REAL VITALITY OUT OF ONE’S BEING…THE ‘AMPLIFIED USEFUL’ MEDIUM OR PERFORMANCE SAVANT THAT MEDIATES IN AN ‘APPEASEMENT’ BELIEVING ‘SUCCESS’ WILL MAKE IT WORTH IT EVEN AS THE CLOCK TICKS AWAY…THE ANGER IN FEELING ONE IS A ‘BATTERY’ OF ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’…THE KNOWLEDGE THAT ONE IS ‘CHARGED’ IN A ‘PATTERN’ THAT IS ‘SEQUENTIALLY’ EVOLVING…ONE IS ‘PART OF A LARGER RESONANCE’…ONE IS ‘MAX ‘INDIVIDUATED’ IN CHARGED ‘MERIDIAN’ STREAMINGS TO ACCENTUATE THE ‘VALUED’ TRAIT, SKILL, TALENT, OR WAY OF BEING…ONE BECOMES ‘GIFTED’ AND ‘UNIQUE’ AS ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’ IS THE ‘TRADE’ AND EXCHANGE ‘PLACE’ OF CONNECTION…THE ‘AGREED UPON ‘STATE’ OF ‘SHARED ENERGY EXCHANGE’…THE ‘MEETING’ OF ‘ONE’S NATURE’ IN ENCOUNTER WITH THE NATURE OF THE GUIDANCE OF A ‘CURRENT MASTER…A ‘MING’ GUIDE FROM A HIGHER PLANE OF CONSCIOUSNESS…THE ‘KA’ OR ‘DOUBLE’ STATE IS THE SPIRIT ‘PRESENCE’ IN ‘MING’ UNITY OF HEAVENS AND EARTH ORDERING…A ‘PERFECTION’ OF SYSTEMIC RESONANCE AS ‘NAMES AS FRAMES’ ARE THE ‘RIGHT PERSON IN THE RIGHT TIME AND POSITIONING’…THE ‘OVERALL HARMONY’ OF ‘MING’ EXTERNALIZATION… THE RAWAR ‘HIP WARS’ SENSIBILITY OF ‘ENERGY’ AMPLIFICATION THROUGH ‘KA’ STRUCTURING OF ‘ELECTRONIC SURROGATES’… THE INDIVIDUAL ‘HALVED’ OR ‘AMPLIFIED’ IN ‘DUALITY’ AS THE ‘DOUBLE’…THE ‘W’ ECHO OF A ‘STATE’ OF RESONANCE…THE ‘INTENSITY’ BLINDNESS OF ‘TOO MUCH’ CHANNELLING THROUGH A LIMITED ‘MERIDIAN PATTERN’…THE ‘ACCENTUATION’ STREAMING OF ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’ WHERE ‘TOO MUCH’ OF A ‘GOOD THING’ IS ‘REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS’ IN TOO LIMITED A MODE OF ‘PERFORMANCE’…THE ‘TOO MUCH’ THAT DRAWS FROM THE FULLNESS OF THE SELF INTO A ‘NARROWED’ PATTERN OF ‘EXCELLENCE’…THE ‘GIFT’ ALWAYS HAS A ‘PRICE’ AS ONE MUST FOLLOW ‘ONE’S BLISS OR ‘PASSION’ OF LIVING YET SEEK DEEP HARMONY AND CIRCULATION OF THE RANGINGS OF ‘YIN TO YANG’ ENERGIES…IT IS A ‘PSYCHE’ BLINDNESS WHERE ‘CONVULSIVENESS’ MAY SIMPLY LEAD TO REPETITION BECOMING ‘MORE SO’ INSTEAD OF LEARNING TO STEP TOWARDS THE ‘GLIMPSE’ OF ‘DESTINY’…THE DIFFERENCE IN FUELINGS, ‘ASSOCIATIONS, ‘INTELLIGENCE’ AND ‘HEALTHY DISTRIBUTIONS’ ACCESSING A FULLER CIRCULATION OF ‘WISE BLOOD’…THE ‘ELECTROMAGNETIC’ MERIDIAN STREAMINGS BECOME MORE FULLY DISTRIBUTED AS ON LEARNS ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’ AND ‘WHAT ESSENCES ARE DISTILLED’…TO QUESTION THE ‘STATE’…TO ‘REALIZE’ THE SIMPLICITY’ OF ONE’S ‘STATE’…TO KNOW THE ‘DOUBLE’’ AS A ‘STATE’ OF ‘INDENTURED OR WILLING SERVITUDE’…A STATE WHERE ONE SEES HOW MUCH ONE IS IN ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’ AND HOW MUCH OF THE REAL SELF IS ‘CORRIDORED’ INTO MERIDIAN FLOW OF ROLE OR PERFORMANCE…TO SEE THE ‘STATE’ BEYOND BEING ‘SOUND BLIND’…TO SEE THE ‘PRESSURE COOKER’ OF CONSTANCY WHICH MIRRORS AND DISPLAYS ‘MING’ ORDERING…THE ‘NAMES AS FRAMES’ STATE OF ‘TREATMENT AND ‘CHARGED’ PATTERNS OF ‘ACCENTUATED’ ROLES…THE EXTERNALIZED AND THE PROJECTED REPRESENTATIONS OF THE ‘MING’ AMPLIFIED DEFINITION OF THE SELF…THE ‘GREAT’ IMPOSITION ORDERING’ ON THE EDGE OF THE ‘PLANE’ OF ‘HIGHER BEINGS’…IT IS A CONSCIOUSNESS DETERMINATION…AN INTELLIGENCE TO ‘TAKE CHARGE’ OF ‘ONE’S OWN BEING’…ONE’S OWN SOUL… KNOWING ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’ AND ‘WHAT IS ESSENTIAL’…THE ‘GLIMPSE MAY BE MERELY A ‘COLLISIONISM’ MOMENT FOSTERING FRUSTRATION AND ‘PATTERN RECURRENCE’…A MOMENT CALLING FORTH THE ‘FATIGUE’ AND ‘WARINESS’ OF THE ONGOING ‘MEDIATION’ ENDURANCE BATTLE…THE ‘NEGOTIATED REALITY OF ‘ACCEPTANCE’ AND ‘SURRENDER’ TO MING ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’… THE ‘STEAMROLLER AFFECT’ OF A DANGER SPIRAL WHERE ONE ‘LOSES’ MORE AND MORE OF ONE’S REAL IN ORDER TO ‘SATISFY’ THE PRESSURES OF THE ‘MING’ AS WELL AS THOSE OF THE HUNGRY GHOSTS OF APPETITE WITHIN…A ‘LOSS’ OF SOUL…A ‘POTENTIAL’ LONG TERM ‘SOUL MURDER’…A ‘STATE’ OF ‘FAILURE’ FEELING ‘OWNED’ BY THE ‘CURRENT MASTER’…IT IS THE ‘QUIET VIOLENCE’ OF COMPLIANCE AS INDIVIDUALS LEARN TO BECOME ‘MORE’ VIA ‘REDIRECTED REPRODUCTIVENESS’…THE QUESTING OF SEEKING TO ‘COUNTER’ THE FEELINGS OF THE ‘TYRANNY OF POWERLESSNESS’…THE ‘BY WHATEVER MEANS’ EVEN THROUGH THE COST’ OF BODILY INTEGRITY’ OF BEING A ‘COG’ IN THE ORDERING OF ‘MING’…‘SUPERVISED FREEDOM’…THE ‘OWNERSHIP’ AS A ‘HAVE TO HAVE’ GAME OF ‘CURRENT RULERS’ MANAGING THE TALENTS, PERFORMERS AND BEINGS…THE ‘DOUBLE’ OR ‘KA’ PERFECTION OF ‘MING’ ORDERING…THE ‘CURRENT RULERS’ RULING THE ‘DEAD’ OR ‘DOUBLE’ STATE OF SOULS…THE ‘ENERGY’ OF THE ‘YIN TO YANG’ RANGE OF ONE’S CREATIVE CAPACITY AS THE ‘WELL-STEIN’ BEING ‘CHARGED’ IN ‘MING’ AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS…AN ‘EMOTIONAL DESERT’ TERRAIN OF ‘HALVES’ OF CHARGED BATTERY VALUE, RESONANCE OF REPRESENTATIVE STATES AND ECONOMIC/SOCIAL GENERATIVITY…IT IS THE RHYTHM OF AN EROSTOCRACY AS A SEXOMONEY MEDIA MACHINE PERCOLATING AND CHURNING ‘ONE OUT OF MANY’… THE GENERATION OF ‘ROLE MODELS’ AND ELECTRONIC SAVANT SEEDS CREATING WAVES OF THE FUTURE…THE DEEPLY SOURCED TALENTS, PERFORMERS, MEDIUMS AND COGS OF A NEW RHYTHM…A NEW ORDERING AS FUEL FOR THE FEW AND THE AWE FASCINATION FOR THE MANY…‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’…THE ‘ZONED’ STATES OF ‘DUALITY’…THE ‘KA’ OR ‘DOUBLE’ AS A ‘TAXED PSYCHE’ WHERE ‘LOAN’ ‘LY’ NORMALCY LIMITS REAL GROWTH…THE ‘HALF’ OR ‘DOUBLE’ OF THE ‘EMPIRE’ CONSTANCY OF DAY AFTER DAY…THE ‘LOAN’ OF ‘LY’ AS THE METHOD OF AMPLIFICATION, THE ‘ADVERB’ OF MOTION…THE EDGE OF THE RHYTHMS OF THE ‘COLLECTIVE OF INDIVIDUALS’ WHO ARE ‘DOUBLED’ IN THE ‘PERFECTION OF MING’…DEEP CONFLICT OF ENERGY…DEEP PLACES OF ‘LOYALTY’ AND ‘FAMILY’ ALLEGIANCES…DEEP ZONINGS OF ‘NECESSITY’ TO DECONSTRUCT THE ‘SHAME FORTRESS’ AND DUEL WITH THE PACIFIERS MAINTAINING THE ‘CONTROLS’ OF THE ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’…DEEP VULNERABILITY OF FEELING ‘LACK’ AS BEING ‘OF SERVICE’ IN ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’ SEDUCES AS THE ‘SIGNAL STOPS TIME FOR THE DURATION OF ITS USE’ AND BLOCKS THE ‘MEMORY OF THE MOMENT’…THE ‘DEAD SOUL’ STATES OF ‘ELECTRONIC SURROGATES’ OF REPRESENTATION AS WELL AS THE EXCESSIVELY SAVANTED STATES OF ‘ATHLETE/PERFORMERS…IT IS ‘TOO MUCH’ OF A GOOD THING AS ‘LEVERAGED’… ‘TOO MUCH’ OF THE SELF CHANNELLED INTO ‘ROLE’ AS ‘THE REAL FULLNESS’ OF A POTENTIALLY HEALTHY CIRCULATION DISTRIBUTION’ IS STREAMED THROUGH A RECURRENT ‘MERIDIAN’ CORRIDORING…AS STELLA ADLER SAID ‘THE TALENT IS IN THE CHOICE’…‘TOO MUCH CHANNELLED THROUGH TOO NARROW’ OF A DISTRIBUTION…A GREAT OPPORTUNISM IN ‘ACHIEVING’ AND LEVERAGING TO EXCEL YET A LONG TERM PRICE OF POSSIBLE LOSS OF ‘HEALTHY PHYSIOLOGY’…THE ‘OMENSPEAK DISTORTIONS OVERWHELM’ AS THE TALENTS ARE ‘COOPTED’ AND BECOME ESSENTIAL TO THE MOMENTUM OF EMPIRE…‘OMENSPEAK’…THE ‘SYMBOLIC’ REPRESENTATION OF ‘ECHOIC TIMBRE’ IN ‘MING’ UNIFICATION OF THE ENERGIES OF THE HEAVENS AND THE EARTH…THE ‘CURRENT RULERS’ MODE OF ‘NAMES AS FRAMES’ CHARGES OF ‘AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS’… THE ‘OMENSPEAK’ AS THE SOURCING OF THE ‘ECHOES’ IN THE ‘COMMON SHARING’ OF COMMUNITY AWARENESS… WHAT ‘MAKES’ THE ‘SYSTEM A ‘SOUND’ SYSTEM’…‘TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING’…THE ‘ELECTRONIC DISILLUSIONMENT’ STATES OF ‘EXHAUSTION’ AND DEEPLY IMPRINTED DISAPPOINTMENTS…THE STATES OF THE ‘UTILITY ZONED’ FEELING ‘BROW BEATEN’ IN AN ‘APPEASEMENT’ AS ‘PAWN’ AND ‘PUPPET’ MODE…THE ‘PARROT’ TEMPOS OF ELECTRONIC SURROGATES OF ‘REPRESENTATION’…THE ‘MEDIUM’ PASS-THROUGH AWARENESS OF ‘BEING USED’…THE ‘MEDIUM’ OR CHANNEL BECOMING FRUSTRATED IN A ‘RESISTANCE’ AS ONE’S ‘LIFE’ INDEPENDENCE IS ‘MEDIATED’ INTO AN ‘AGREED UPON’ STATE OR PERFORMANCE…ONE EXPERIENCES THE ‘IT’ AS ‘SOUND BLINDNESS’ AS THE ‘ACTION’ OR ‘SKILL’ IS ENHANCED IN A WAY THAT THE REMOTE ‘SIGNAL STOPS THE MEMORY OF THE MOMENT’ EVEN AS ONE BECOMES MORE PROFICIENT IN ‘DOING’…IT IS ‘UNHEARD’, ‘INVISIBLE’ AND TOTALLY DEMANDING AS ‘URGENCY’ OR ‘DESIRE’ DRIVES ONE TO ‘JUST DO IT’…MOST ONLY SEE THE ‘BUFFER CLASS’ OF MEDIA ATHLETES, ENTERTAINERS, AND PERFORMERS THAT BLOCK THE RESIDENTS OF THE MIDDLE OF THE PYRAMID FROM SEEING HOW THE ‘UNHEARD SOUND’ AMPLIFIES AND ‘ACCENTUATES’ TALENTS IN ‘INCREMENTAL WAYS’…IT IS AN ‘ENERGY’ CHARGE OF A ‘WAY’ OR A PATTERN OF ‘PERFORMANCE’…IT IS ‘HEALING’ AS ‘COOL FIRE’ ENERGIES TO ASSIST ONE TO MAXIMIZE A ‘GIFT’…TO EXCEED EARLIER LIMITS…TO MOVE TOWARDS THAT ‘GLIMPSE OF THE STRANGER’ THAT SEEMS ‘OUT OF REACH’…THE OPPORTUNITY TO MOVE TOWARD THE DISSOLUTION OF THE UNREAL SELF AS ONE ‘KNOWS THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’…IS IT ALWAYS THE ‘CARROT AND THE STICK’ OF DRIVES TO REALIZE’ OR DOES ONE HAVE AN ‘INHERENT VALUE’ SIMPLY TO GROW AND BECOME A FULLY REALIZED HEALTHY PERSON…ONE MUST SEE WITH THE HEART AS WHAT IS IMPORTANT IS INVISIBLE TO THE EYE…THE ST. EXUPERY LE PETIT PRINCE BELIEF…TO FOCUS THROUGH THE HEART OF A WILL OF CONNECTION…TO MEET IN THE DREAM EVOLUTION INTO PRESENCE…‘ANGER OR REVOLT THAT DOES NOT BECOME PART OF THE MUSCLES AND FIBERS OF THE BODY REMAINS A FIGMENT OF THE IMAGINATION’…SIMONE DE BEAUVOIRTHUS, THE MINIMAL FEW HAVE GREAT DIFFICULTY IN CHALLENGING ‘AS IS’ BECAUSE THE ‘RHYTHMS’ ARE SO FAR OUT OF REACH…TO GLIMPSE THE CULTURE, TO SEE THE POTENTIAL OF REDIRECTION, TO REDUCE THE DISTORTIONS AND BE IN REALISM…TO REMOVE THE ILLUSIONS OF THE ‘BIONIC’ AND THE ‘ACCENTUATED’ AND THEREBY REDUCE THE GAP BETWEEN THE ACTUAL AND THE ‘AMPLIFIED’…IT IS ABOUT THE INERTIA OF THE SEXOMONEY MEDIA EROS MACHINE…THE OVERWHELMING OF THE TALENTED FEW AND THE AWE STRUCK ‘MANY’…THE PROCESS OF GENERATING ‘EMULATION’ AND ‘PERSONALITY’ CONSUMPTION AND IMITATION MONEYMAKING…IT IS PERSONALITY AND PRODUCT ASSOCIATION RATHER THAN ‘CHARACTER’ DEVELOPMENT…THE ‘OPPOSITION FEW’ ARE NEUTRALIZED AND SILENCED IN THE MOMENTUM OF ‘EMPIRE’…IT IS SEEING AND WANDERING IN THE LAND OF THE UNITED STATES OF DREAMS WHERE SO MANY ‘HALVES’ ARE LOOKING FOR ‘WHOLES’ AS THEY ARE MANAGED IN THE ONGOING MOMENT OF A MING FOCUSED ‘HAVE TO HAVE’ GAME OF THE FEW SEEKING ADVANTAGE AS ‘HAVE MORES’…THE ‘SUPERVISED FREEDOM OF SAVANTS, MEDIUMS AND TALENTS AS DEFINED IN ‘MING’ OWNERSHIP OF THE ‘DOUBLE’ STATES OF ‘PERFECTION’…‘BUY THIS AND BECOME THIS’… ‘BE JUST LIKE MIKE’…WEAR SOMEONE ELSE’S IDENTITY…THE FEAR OF THE ‘BLUE TOMORROW’ IS REFLECTED IN THE INFANTILE ARRESTED MIRRORING OF THE ‘CHILD WOMAN’…THE MOMENT OF THE ‘INSTANT’ IMAGE THAT PERMITS ONE TO ‘MOVE’ ON…FILLING THE PLACE THAT BECKONS AS ‘EMPTINESS’…THE ‘POPCORN’ AND ‘SODA POP’ MOVE ‘V’ PLACE OF FEELINGS BEYOND THE FAMILIAR…IT IS ‘RUNNING DOWN’ THE DREAM WHEREVER IT LEADS AND ACHIEVING ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’…THEREIN IS THE TERRAIN OF ‘PERSISTENT ENERGY’ ORDERED TO THE CONTROLS OF THE ‘HUNGRY GHOSTS’…THE POTENTIAL PLACE OF CREATIVITY AS IN A NUCLEAR PERCOLATION OF CLAIMING ONE’S OWN VOLCANIC LAVA FLOWS…HE QUITS SMOKING CIGARETTES AND TRANSFERS NICOTINED NERVES INTO NEW GROWTH AND CREATIVE EXPRESSION…EXPRESSING THE REAL ‘AFFECTS’ OF HOW THE WORLD COMPRESSES IN ON HIM…SHE FEELS A VULNERABLE DUALITY AS HER ‘HALVENESS’ SENSES COMPLY ‘ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL’ IN ORDER TO BE THE ‘PERFECTION’ OF MING IN A FORM OF ‘INDENTURED SERVITUDE’…A ‘PUPPETRY FEELING’ OF ‘AWMATON’ ROBOTICISM OF AMPLIFIED USEFULNESS…A TIME OF DEFINING TO OVERCOME POWERLESSNESS AND CONFUSION…THE DEVELOPMENTAL PATHING FROM AN ‘AUTHORITATIVE’ FORCE… THE ‘SAVANTING’ TENDENCY’ OF CHANNEL AND PATTERN LEVERAGINGS TO RECEIVE REWARDS FOR ‘COMPLIANCE’…TO BE…OR ‘NOT TO BE’…THE ‘FEAR OF A BLUE TOMORROW’…THE LIMITS AND HESITANCIES OF POTENTIAL GROWTH…EVERY BREATH COMPRESSED IN A COMPLIANCE REACTIVITY TO BE AS ‘EXPECTED’ OR ‘DEFY’ AS ANGERED…A GREAT KINWEBBING OF OPPRESSION WITH NO GUIDANCE TO BE ACCEPTED FOR WHO ONE ACTUALLY IS…THE FEAR OF A BLUE TOMORROW…TO SEE THE ‘OMENOLOGICAL SENSIBILITY’ OF THE ‘GLIMPSE’ THAT BECKONS AND HOW ONE DECIDES ‘THAT WHICH MUST BE LET GO’ AND ‘TRUTH OF PRESENCE’…

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